Somewhere along certain points, a piece of me is left behind. Covered in your dust. So i never really move on. Not till that piece decomposes, if it actually does.
"Just by living, the sadness has piled up"
- 5cm per second
- 5cm per second
There are times where mere memories of what happened can bring me to tears.
I will serve.
Memories in my ideal, are nothing much more than burden if what you had, you have not now.
"If we're going to 'understand' each other, then they need to suffer like we did."
- Naruto anime
- Naruto anime
I guess it's true then. You don't quite understand why i'm so pessimistic in your eyes. You don't understand why my vision of the world is built in that way which you find pessimistic.
After several tries with different individuals with similar results. It is established that that's how thing are going to turn out. So if you're one to ask "who's going" upon being asked, disappear.
Because it is not what you truly want. It is what people expect you to seem to want. Those 'mandatory' nice words are well disliked by me.
But of course, like i attempted to convey to Rina last night, that which may apply to my mortal remains valid. At the same time, it is invalidated by the fact that i have my duty towards my mortal.
The 6300 is at hand. Connoted simply & elegant. I agree with the latter, but the simplicity of the device has me fumbled. SIM card only messages, PTT, IM. The main pain now is not being able to find the messages kept in my SIM card.
It was enjoyable yesterday. For me, it's not the activity. It's the company, & lack of distractions. The supposedly short meet up was lengthened unexpectedly. We sat & chat & watched the people pass us by. A kid enjoying his ice cream intrigued her. He kept smiling at us.
That cheerfulness was in stark contrast to the boy at the next table who kept his head down as his mother shouted at him from across the coffee table. That parent should know to summarize her scoldings. She on her way to conditioning her child to pay no heed to her prolonged ramblings.
Rina had me in a state of anxiety when she didn't send any message about arriving home. A call to her phone was greeted with an 'out of coverage' message. She had mentioned that she felt someone was watching her while walking. Spotting 2 mentally ill men in various state of 'undress' at the interchange only served to compound my worries.
I decided to check things out online. There it was, a message from her. I was terribly relieved. The tone of her words made her seem like an innocent child oblivious to the worry she caused. Our chat started later in the night & continued into the early morning. She was well, in a high mood? I cannot find the words to describe that state.
By that time, she'd gotten tired while i had gone from being tired to starting to feel more awake. Now, i still have one question in mind to which i require a appropriate response from her. Another day perhaps. No regrets staying up with you. Haha!
I need help.
With the 6300 that is.
With the 6300 that is.