Gluttony will kill me one day.
Thinking that I am undeserving of what I have now? Never.
I either feel that I have what I have fair & square, or I'm a selfish fuck who feels life owes him more, & hence needs more to feel a bit of underserving.
But does it count to be grateful for having something?
Friends in army are clearer cut than most other situations. People who help you out-field & in-camp, people who take an extra DO slot for you because you can't make it on a particular day.
Coming back to the civilian world, friends became a lot more grey. Didn't help that I'm colour-deficient literally & figuratively. Hell, even holding a 2-way conversation with girls felt very foreign.
I've had some help with colour differenciation over this past one year. Condition is hardly normal, but at least I know what to watch out for.
Remember Remember 30th September
Commitment is quick & I expect reciprocating. In the past that is.
On another note, am I incapable of working comfortably with no one but a marine animal?