Now what should I do?

Bowen boys playing soccer at a court while their female counterparts passed by, I recalled such times.

The complete attention of the skirted figures was what we desired. In our own way, by our own logic, we tried. To be what we thought was attractive, positive.

As it was mentioned in Death Note: "6 billion people, 6 billion ways of righteousness".

Try as you might, the boat never drifts closer.

It was a matter of pride & curiosity. I decided to make an unusual choice.

Like Roger said, I am a black horse indeed. It is OCS for me on Monday. A tough 9 months ahead. I probably will need cheering up halfway through. To get Out-Of-Training would be a huge embarrassment.

Zaty likened it to being pregnant. I second that analogy. The end of the 9 months, is meant to be bitter sweet. But how it'll turn out, I cannot tell.